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part II of Royal Wedding and reflection

Posted in Labels: just share :), love story 4/30/2011 12:16:00 PM

"... for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer,
in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish,
'till death do us part"

I'm still reviewing about the Royal Wedding
talking about it, I'm just kinda expecting to have a wedding just like that

however,
I'm just an ordinary girl at my own city.
It's just my dream to be a princess, well let say I'm not a princess this ain't a fairy tale.

"What therefore God has united (joined together),
let not man separate or divide." (Mrk 10:9)

moreover, I still imagine that's all totally a dream too hard to be true.
yet, the royal wedding especially what did happen to Kate is what all girls are dreaming about.
isn't it?

rite now, let face the truth
not dream, not fairy tale..

TRUE LOVE WAITS
for those who already find their true love, just believe and consider him as your prince (if you are a girl)
or the opposite.
so that, you will feel something new yet something different in your heart and your feeling towards him/her.

talking about love, love is not based on face, appereance, position, occupation, money, or something else.
it's about deeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppp inside your heart. it's about feeling. cos, no one can shake or break your feeling about someone you love, that feeling is under deep your heart likewise.
you keep it
you save it.
sometimes you burry it,
but still you find and you never loose it

that's what I get about love itself. :)

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princess in waiting

Posted in 4/29/2011 12:52:00 PM

Fri, 29th April 2011

well, the royal wedding is inspiring me to write on this blog.
I do amaze with Prince William and Kate Middleton's wedding and let say, I'm a fan of them, counted by today.
why do I amaze with they relationship?
1st. I am not talking about religion side, which is now very popular in my community. but i'm talking about "dream comes true"
next, it is too rare while prince meet a rural woman, he fell in love and surprisingly it is ended by marriage. what did I meant by surprisingly on the previous sentences is .... many times I watch many fairy tales like Cinderella, another movie like Meteor Garden (a story between a rich guy with a rural girl), or Cinderella Story, or Princess Diaries. But that's all folks.
here and now. i can't imagine all that I interest in combine into one event.

marriage..
europe.. UK..
kingdom..
prince..
carriage..
castle..

all seems in dream and now it's too good to be true.
likewise I interest with a statement from Kate that said "princess in waiting", it inspires me to wait for the right time to have a perfect wedding.

what a romantic day for prince and princess. I'm still waiting for my time that's made by Him and I trust He'll make another beautiful day for me.

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I call it romantic

Posted in 3/03/2011 10:46:00 PM

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remaining 4 days

Posted in Labels: love story 1/12/2011 10:49:00 PM

Wednesday, 12th January 2011

knowing you are no longer here, really make me upset

it's about heart and feeling.

some said I'm sloppy, some said I'm sensitive.

well, it's me. yes it's me!

but, I rather being judged as a sloppy girl etc, than I lie to my heart

I really can't imagine how's my life in the next day.

it will be empty, it will be quiet, and it won't be as colorful as before.

people and friends can feel the different way,

honestly I just want them feel your existence by surprising you or other way.

I want you become more confident in society.

I can only pray, I do hope you have great experiences in life there.

I hope when you come back someday, you'll tell many extraordinary stories,

which means you did do everything best there.

day by day, closer to that day,

I want to dedicate my time for you.

I will do everything till the time that I can't see you

and I will wait to see your face again. till the time meets us.

this is the hardest part, to let you go for a distance,

to leave your society, to leave everything here.

cry is not a big deal in this case.

you don't have any power to cancel the departure

so, show me that you don't wanna go through your tears.

I don't laugh cos boy's tears.

because they rarely cry, their tears means something !

something inside their heart, which is floating and cannot be contained anymore.

I'd ever hoped that I can be the greatest girl for you, but I can't be.

I'm not that great and I'm just a simple girl, maybe impolite sometimes. :(

I just like an old women, give the message over and over again before you leave.

many letter I will give to you, through 2 myspro and 1 card, and I forget what else

maybe this blog?

well, just trying to blow up several thing inside my heart.

sorry if I'm too talk-active.

just worry too much.

PS. I love you.

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1st anniversary

Posted in Labels: love story 12/21/2010 09:38:00 AM

well, it's 3 days after our anniversary
and it's been 1 year I shared my heart with him,
everyday was a great day I've ever passed.
talk about time, 1 year is quite a long time,
but, for me, memories make all feel a short time.
up and down many times,
happy and sad,
laugh and tears,
are all upon us.. but we still hold in our commitment last year
18 december 2009
so that, we can survive till this day.

some people are saying many bad things behind,
some people maybe jealous with us,
some people don't give confession about our relationship,
some people are heavy-mouthed to give us a greet,
but it doesn't matter, cos it's our day :)

here is bouquet and diary from him, I never dream that

I'll get all this stuff, especially for the bouquet.

it was the first from the only,

I do love the 12 roses

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grown up

Posted in Labels: quotes 11/20/2010 11:56:00 AM

people..
people grow up without their awareness,
people grow up because time is running,
people grow up steady,
people grow up and seen by others,
people grow up and never realize.
but while they look back into the history,
they realize and aware that they're grown up.

this is what I get when I take a good attention of my boyfriend :)

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either happy or sad

Posted in Labels: love story 11/13/2010 12:22:00 PM

well, not all love story is gonna be a happy story ever.

it has its own uniqueness itself. tear, is one of them.

many days passed, I prayed for something that clearly make me sad.

and now the prayer has been answered.

it's not YES and it's not NO.. it relates to the only boy whom I love most.

it seems that I'm gonna loose him, he's about continuing his study abroad.

he's going to Sydney, which distance is 3422 miles from the city that I live.

I honestly say, it's really hard for me, but I have to let him go.

I confess that my boy is a GREAT GREAT guy I've ever met.

I love him so much, I don't want to destroy his dream though.

love can be MAINTAINED but opportunity ONLY COMES ONCE. :)

-vepllvasc

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18september2010

Posted in Labels: love story 9/19/2010 02:46:00 PM

~it always be perfect while I'm with you.
today is my 9th months anniversary with him.
I can't believe today is gonna be a great day... I really want and expected to meet him today. moreover, today is our date. 18th! but it's weekend.
it's hard for us to meet each other.
but in the morning he picked my sister to had a rehearsal and while I picked up my sister, I met him. for a while, yea.. just a while.

then I went to senayan city, to had a facial at debenhams. it was really great.
this is the first time I got facial and I really love it so much. maybe I can go back there again.
well, it's not the point of discussion of my blog..
when I had a facial, I heard a song that sang by BEP which title is I Gotta Feeling.
for some of you who doesn't know the lyric, here is the song said:

"I gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night.

That tonight's gonna be a good night

That tonight's gonna be a good, good night"

I heard and I just chuckled at myself.
what? is tonight gonna be a really good night for me?
I was planned to go dinner with my family, cos my grandma just went back from her trip to Hongkong, Korea, Japan, and another Asia country. whew.. that's interested.
yea but suddenly, I was asked by his friend to join 17th party.

HA HA HA....!!
you know what's my response about what I've read?
deep of my heart I want.. but another side, I just want to scream....
"HELL NO! are you dreaming? I don't want the accident at beleza is repeated again"

something crazy thought was passing through my mind.....
and I haven't talked to my mom, usually I'll get mad if I don't join family dinner. I tried to call my mom, but she didn't answer her phone. sigh!
finally I arrive home with my decision to attend that party, and I took my brave heart to called my grandma,,
*ringing*
P: "Hi grandma! how's the trip?? was it fun??"
*blaaaaa3*
"grandma, tonight I can't join the dinner, cos I have a bday invitation. how about I come to your house tomorrow afternoon?"

and spontaneously, my grandma accepted it and asked me to visit her on the next day.
the day was absolutely began!
I haven't told my mom, I don't know where is she going. -_____-
then I took a shower, I opened my closet WIDELY......... started to picked 1 of the best dress which is comfortable and match with DC.
1st outfit doesn't match.....
2nd outfit doesn't match.....
3rd outfit doesn't match.....
4th outfit doesn't match.....

5th outfit doesn't match.....

neither does 6th outfit.......

I got frustrated cos the clock turn to 6pm. and his friend said she wanted to picked me up on 6pm..

I forgot about dresses, I took my make up set and honestly I'm not in my mood for make up. well I just wore the shimmering by missha and powder by etude, and the MUST-EST thing eyeliner by revlon. final thing lipstick by dior.

my face was done! finale... I got my old cherry pink dress and a velvet mocca semi-blazer.

7pm.. I was picked up. and there was my prince waited in front of my house. hahahhaa...

in car I just felt unbelievable to met him today. and WE GO TO PARTY ..! without a casual outfit, we all well-dressed.

at that place, I felt awkward. no one I know, no one I recognize... my hand just hung on him.

kinda child who always hold on their parent hands in a crowd.

we enjoyed the night, in the edge of pool side, with moonlight and stars sparkle above the sky.

once I wondered.... oh God, can I have this time again? may I? shall I?

in the middle of the party, I sat beside him. suddenly I felt sad...

God, really.. can I have this time? my tears almost came out. but I held up.

I went to toilet to take a look at myself. then I went back.

I put my position beside him again. now I really happy cos I was right there with him..

we played,

we chatted,

and we joked.

inside my heart there's small voice, says, "hey you're now with the boy that you love!"

DANG!! what's happen with me???

I suddenly I was blushing. I bowed my head, looked down.. I don't dare to stare at him.

you know, this like the first time when I was in love with a boy. maybe he replace the boy whom I love at the first time in my past. :)

the clock turns to 9.15pm and we decide to go home.

in the car with my hand on him, with the music turned on.

over and over the music made me mellow. it was Close by westlife..

here is the lyric.....

"You give me strength

You give me hope

You give me someone to love someone to hold

When I'm in your arms

I need you to know

I've never been

I've never been this close"

it's really me! with my hand on him!!...

I asked to God, "can I stop the time?"

feel always secure, warm, comfortable, peaceful, sweet and precious while with him.

I stepped out from car and got into my house,

tidy up myself then I entered my room and flash-backing

"is that a dream? I felt like on fairy tale... please don't wake me up if it's a dream!"

it's 12am and I fell a sleep........

apparently, it was a real life and I just start my dream on my bed....

what a day! a perfect day !

happy 9th months anniversary, sammy :):)

glad to have you as my partner ^^

love you as always ! ♥♥♥♥

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Arti alat-alat tarian dan tarian perang.

Posted in Labels: with God 8/15/2010 08:47:00 PM

Tarian perang adalah tarian untuk mengikat kuasa-kuasa kegelapan, mengusir roh-roh jahat, membangun tembok, menduduki kota, mengalahkan musuh, memukul mundur lawan, membalikkan keadaan.

Kembalilah, kembalilah, ya gadis Sulam, kembalilah, kembalilah, supaya kami dapat melihat engkau! Mengapa kamu senang melihat gadis Sulam itu seperti melihat tari-tarian perang?
(Kidung Agung 6:13)

TUHAN itu pahlawan perang; TUHAN, itulah nama-Nya.
(Keluaran 15:3)

Dalam peperangan rohani kita menggunakan senjata-senjata. Senjata yang Tuhan berikan bukanlah senjata duniawi, tetapi senjata yang diperlengkapi dengan kuasa Allah.

Karena senjata kami dalam perjuangan bukanlah senjata duniawi, melainkan senjata yang diperlengkapi dengan kuasa Allah, yang sanggup untuk meruntuhkan benteng-benteng.
(2 Korintus 10:4)

Tubuh kita adalah senjata kebenaran.

Dan janganlah kamu menyerahkan anggota-anggota tubuhmu kepada dosa untuk dipakai sebagai senjata kelaliman, tetapi serahkanlah dirimu kepada Allah sebagai orang-orang, yang dahulu mati, tetapi yang sekarang hidup. Dan serahkanlah anggota-anggota tubuhmu kepada Allah untuk menjadi senjata-senjata kebenaran.
(Roma 6:13)

Kenakanlah seluruh perlengkapan senjata Allah, supaya kamu dapat bertahan melawan tipu muslihat Iblis. Sebab itu ambillah seluruh perlengkapan senjata Allah, supaya kamu dapat mengadakan perlawanan pada hari yang jahat itu dan tetap berdiri, sesudah kamu menyelesaikan segala sesuatu.
(Efesus 6:11,13)

Arti-arti Senjata dalam Tarian Profetik

1. Tongkat: Pukullah tongkatmu maka terbelahlah lautan kesusahan
• Lambang otoritas (Kejadian 49:10)
• Membuat tanda-tanda mujizat (Keluaran 4:17)
• Untuk berperang (Keluaran 17:9)
• Menguduskan persembahan bagi Tuhan (Imamat 27:32)
• Menggali sumur dan kekayaan bangsa-bangsa (Bilangan 21:17)
• Meremukkan pelipis-pelipis dan menghancurkan musuh (Bilangan 24:17)
• Menewaskan musuh (Hakim-hakim 3:31)
• Pujian/ucapan syukur -Yehuda- merupakan tongkat Kerajaan (Mazmur 108:8)
• Memerintah di antara musuh-musuh. (Mazmur 110:2)
• Mendidik (Mazmur 22:15)
• Mendatangkan hikmat (Mazmur 29:15)
• Menghancurkan lawan (Yesaya 30:32)
• Membawa masuk kepada kebenaran (Yehezkiel 20:37, Ibrani 1:8)
• Lambang penggembalaan (Zakharia 11:7)

2. Bokor/bejana adalah kemampuan menangkap hadirat Tuhan
• Mentahirkan (Bilangan 7:61, 84)
• Wangi-wangian bagi Tuhan (Keluaran 30:7, 40:27,
2 Tawarikh 2:4, Amsal 27:9)

3. Selendang adalah jubah urapan dalam kehidupan
• Anugerah (Yakobus 1:17, Mazmur 5:13)
• Mengumpulkan berkat (Ruth 3:15)
• Membebat yang terluka (Ayub 5:18)
• Jubah (Yesaya 61:10)

4. Twirling adalah aliran atmosfir surga memberi semangat kegerakan yang tidak terhentikan
• Pesta (Kidung Agung 2:4)
• Sepakat (1 Samuel 14:7)
• Urapan yang mengalir (Mazmur 133:2)
• Membangun suasana (Mazmur 30:12)

5. Kipas adalah pembangkit semangat
• Mengobarkan karunia, kemurnian, dll (2 Timotius 1:6)
• Menyala-nyala dan pembangkit semangat (Roma 12:11)

6. Flower Rings/Ring Api adalah lingkupan kuasaNya
• Unity (Mazmur 133:1-3)
• Meterai (Kejadian 41:42)
• Perjanjian Tuhan (Kejadian 9:13)
• Perjanjian yang baru (Lukas 15:22)
• Lidah api lambang Roh Kudus, api kegerakan, api cinta, api lawatan. (Kidung Agung 8:6)

7. Tambourine, pecahkan semua rencana iblis dengan suara gemerincingmu.
• Membuka jalan bagi nubuatan (1 Samuel 10:5)
• Kemenangan (1 Samuel 18:6)
• Menari sekuat tenaga (2 Samuel 6:5, 1 Tawarikh 13:8,
Ayub 21:12, Mazmur 68:25, 81:2)
• Bermazmur (Mazmur 149:3, 150:4)
• Berperang dan mengacaukan musuh (Yesaya 30:32)
• Mengembalikan tarian yang dibawa jatuh oleh Lucifer (Yeremia 31:4)

8. Bunga adalah hati yang bermekaran memuji Tuhan
• Menggambarkan kandil, lambang kegerakan dan lawatan (Keluaran 25:33 dan 34, 37:19-20)
• Keharuman (1 Raja-raja 6:29, 6:32)
• Lambang cinta (Kidung Agung 2:1)

9. Baskom pembasuhan adalah kerendahan hati dan hati hamba
• Hati hamba dan kerendahan hati (Mazmur 22:26, Yesaya 57:15)

10. Pedang dan perisai

Pedang.
Angkatlah pedangmu! Koyakkan selubung, kalahkan musuh, pancung kepala raksasa, rebut kota demi kota, hai Pahlawan Tuhan!
• Dikatakan bahwa kerub mempunyai pedang yang bernyala-nyala dan menyambar-nyambar, yaitu Firman Tuhan, api Roh Kudus, kuasa yang ajaib, kebangkitan yang besar, gelora cinta. (Kejadian 3:24)
• Mengalahkan musuh (Keluaran 17:13, Imamat 26:8)
• Merebut suatu daerah dan menduduki kota (Kejadian 48:22, Yosua 10:30)
• Mengacaukan musuh (Hakim-hakim 4:15)
• Memancung kepala raksasa (1 Samuel 17:51)
• Apapun yang kelihatannya biasa dalam hidup kita kalau ditempa akan jadi senjata rohani yang luar biasa. Dalam kelemahan kita, kita akan berkata bahwa aku ini pahlawan. (Yoel 3:10)
• Menembus jiwa untuk menyingkapkan selubung dapam hidup kita (Lukas 2:34-35)
• Ada harga yang harus dibayar (Lukas 22:36)
• Firman Tuhan adalah pedang bermata dua (Wahyu 1:16, 2:12)

Perisai
Pergunakanlah perisai iman yang akan dapat memadamkan semua panah api dari si jahat. KesetiaanNya ialah perisai dan pagar tembok.
• Pertolongan Tuhan (Ulangan 33:29)
• Perlindungan (2Samuel 22:31)
• Keselamatan (2 Samuel 22:36)
• Formasi perisai yang digambarkan lewat punggung buaya (Ayub 41:16)
• Untuk bertempur. (Yeremia 46:3)
• Iman, memadamkan panah api dari si jahat (Efesus 6:16)

11. Banner. Angkatlah panji-panjiMu! Masuki peperangan dan kegerakan pasukan Allah yang kuat.
• Jehovah Nissi. Peperangan bicara tentang mezbah, meletakkan korban. (Keluaran 7:15)
• Untuk peperangan (Keluaran 17:16)
• Identitas (Bilangan 1:52)
• Memanggil jiwa, mengumpulkan orang-orang yang terbuang (Yesaya 5:26, 11:12)
• Membuka dan mempersiapkan jalan (Yesaya 62:10)
• Memperingatkan rakyat (Yeremia 4:21)
• Waktu kita mengangkat panji kita sedang meninggikan nama Tuhan yang akan menarik banyak orang datang kepadaNya. (Mazmur 20:5)
• Berlindung terhadap panah (Mazmur 60:4)

12. Arrow (Anak Panah) Begitu cepat dan tajam, tepat pada sasaran. Inilah anak panah kemenangan.
• Percepatan (Zakharia 9:14)
• Ketajaman (Mazmur 45:6)
• Ketepatan/Ketajaman (Yesaya 49:2)

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imperfect.

part II of Royal Wedding and reflection

princess in waiting

I call it romantic

remaining 4 days

1st anniversary

grown up

either happy or sad

18september2010

Arti alat-alat tarian dan tarian perang.

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