JULY

I don't mention the exact date. well, cos what i'm going to share is about 3 weeks in July.
May, June, July are my holidays. it's been 6 months since my boy left Jakarta.
He went back on 30th June 2011, i haven't met him on that day.


The story begin on Friday, he came to my house in the early morning, and i was 1/2 awake. I just felt it's really dream. afternoon made me overwhelm about the morning when I saw him face to face. it's unbelieve-able. maybe it's too over, but so do I, too miss him.
on Saturday, I honestly forgot an exact event.
Sunday, it's a rehearsal, I was shocked by saw him. he's now really thin, far from my imagination. idk why that day i disappointed. maybe it's becos i'm too miss him.


Monday 4july. I accompanied him cut his hair at Puri, then we drunk chatime. it's like a happy day to treat u first drink chatime :)
Tuesday 5july. plan to TA was canceled. cos he requested to accompanied him to watch arthur3. it's a pleasure to fulfill his request :)
Wednesday 6july. today we didn't meet each other as I remember. I went to Emporium.
Thursday 7july. we had a badminton game. i was totally excited. moreover, i got his ride. :) 3hours play and we went to ruko for a while. thanks for today. it was the sweet day ..
Friday 8july. forgot
Saturday 9 july. met him in the morning .
Sunday 10 july we didn't meet anyway 3-|


Mon 11july. we just played at my home, cycling, eat at sedap alami. :D
Tue 12 july. we went to ta, saw a huge bear, he wanna buy it fot me and i rejected him. we ate at Hangang, had a lunch together with a tangled song from sky rink. then we went home.
Wed 13july til Fri 15july. he stayed at bandung. but at friday we had a service together what a dream... 
Sat 16july- Sun 17july. nothing special. as usual weekend.


Mon 18july. it's our 19th month anniv. anniversary is just celebrated at home , by watched tv together and made 12pcs enoki bacon. thanks for the card
Tue 19july. it's a terrible date. we went to ta to eat some food but we met unwanted-to-meet people. hmm a last day hangout become not sweet nor enjoyable. then after a complicated things happened. we escaped to cp. had a lite bites and thank GOD we had time to buy ourselves an outfit.
Wed 20july. my mind kept thinking about his return to Syd. previous day by bought him a sweater, i wanted to buy him a scarf as he wants. I went to mangdu today, it's hard to find a winter outfit there. suddenly when i walked around I saw a winter outfit store, but I think my mom n sist wouldn't wait for me if i entered that store. finally they went to optic and sat quite long time. then i went back to that store again. i found the scarf! but maybe he wouldn't like it. I just bought so he can keep warm in the winter. At night we went to puri together. I bought him facial wet tissue. it's like a satisfaction to buy him many things.
Thurs 21july. last rehearsal. i completely *uring2an* cos the day was getting closer. i wanted him to be with me. i was a bit mad cos he's disappear when rehearsal was going to start.
Fri 22july. its a day before. i was getting busy with make up stuff and he called me. I cudn't pick up, and finally we got misunderstand. i wasn't angry but i saw him drove a car like that and i totally hate him. I was upset , why did our last day become like this? sadness and angriness stayed in my heart, when i took a picture with him by wore white dress. till finally in the middle of the event, i realized it's the last day i cud see him. I was down and I hardly cud forgive myself. when he went home, i was still at Prisma, my tears started drop. :|
Sat 23 july. the day. time flies really fast! as fast as I can't guess. in the early morning he came again to got a permission of leave Jakarta today. I cried hurtly, he just 10 minutes at my home. I went back to my bed and cried. I woke up at 10am I kept crying. I took a bath, I cried. I went downstairs and looked around living room, kitchen and foyer then I cried. my mind couldn't stop thinking and recalling about the memories. I sleep again in the afternoon the wake up with tears. tears kept dropping. at PX while we had a dinner, I hardly hold my tears. till the night,I cried when he called me up. 


it's been a second time letting you go, but why do i feel harder and harder?
i'll miss his hands holding mine. i'll miss his arms hugging me. :'( and i'll miss every moment that we shared together...
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part II of Royal Wedding and reflection

"... for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer,
in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish,
'
till death do us part"
I'm still reviewing about the Royal Wedding
talking about it, I'm just kinda expecting to have a wedding just like that


however,
I'm just an ordinary girl at my own city.
It's just my dream to be a princess, well let say I'm not a princess this ain't a fairy tale.
"What therefore God has united (joined together),
let not man separate or divide." (Mrk 10:9)
moreover, I still imagine that's all totally a dream too hard to be true.
yet, the royal wedding especially what did happen to Kate is what all girls are dreaming about.
isn't it?


rite now, let face the truth
not dream, not fairy tale..

TRUE LOVE WAITS
for those who already find their true love, just believe and consider him as your prince (if you are a girl)
or the opposite.
so that, you will feel something new yet something different in your heart and your feeling towards him/her.


talking about love, love is not based on face, appereance, position, occupation, money, or something else.
it's about deeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppp inside your heart. it's about feeling. cos, no one can shake or break your feeling about someone you love, that feeling is under deep your heart likewise.
you keep it
you save it.
sometimes you burry it,
but still you find and you never loose it


that's what I get about love itself. :)
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princess in waiting

Fri, 29th April 2011


well, the royal wedding is inspiring me to write on this blog.
I do amaze with Prince William and Kate Middleton's wedding and let say, I'm a fan of them, counted by today.
why do I amaze with they relationship?
1st. I am not talking about religion side, which is now very popular in my community. but i'm talking about "dream comes true"
next, it is too rare while prince meet a rural woman, he fell in love and surprisingly it is ended by marriage. what did I meant by surprisingly on the previous sentences is .... many times I watch many fairy tales like Cinderella, another movie like Meteor Garden (a story between a rich guy with a rural girl), or Cinderella Story, or Princess Diaries. But that's all folks.
here and now. i can't imagine all that I interest in combine into one event.


marriage..
europe.. UK..
kingdom..
prince..
carriage..
castle..


all seems in dream and now it's too good to be true.
likewise I interest with a statement from Kate that said "princess in waiting", it inspires me to wait for the right time to have a perfect wedding.


what a romantic day for prince and princess. I'm still waiting for my time that's made by Him and I trust He'll make another beautiful day for me.
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I call it romantic

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remaining 4 days

Wednesday, 12th January 2011

knowing you are no longer here, really make me upset
it's about heart and feeling.
some said I'm sloppy, some said I'm sensitive.
well, it's me. yes it's me!

but, I rather being judged as a sloppy girl etc, than I lie to my heart
I really can't imagine how's my life in the next day.
it will be empty, it will be quiet, and it won't be as colorful as before.
people and friends can feel the different way,
honestly I just want them feel your existence by surprising you or other way.
I want you become more confident in society.

I can only pray, I do hope you have great experiences in life there.
I hope when you come back someday, you'll tell many extraordinary stories,
which means you did do everything best there.

day by day, closer to that day,
I want to dedicate my time for you.
I will do everything till the time that I can't see you
and I will wait to see your face again. till the time meets us.
this is the hardest part, to let you go for a distance,
to leave your society, to leave everything here.
cry is not a big deal in this case.
you don't have any power to cancel the departure
so, show me that you don't wanna go through your tears.
I don't laugh cos boy's tears.
because they rarely cry, their tears means something !
something inside their heart, which is floating and cannot be contained anymore.

I'd ever hoped that I can be the greatest girl for you, but I can't be.
I'm not that great and I'm just a simple girl, maybe impolite sometimes. :(
I just like an old women, give the message over and over again before you leave.
many letter I will give to you, through 2 myspro and 1 card, and I forget what else
maybe this blog?

well, just trying to blow up several thing inside my heart.
sorry if I'm too talk-active.
just worry too much.

PS. I love you.
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