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Wednesday, 12th January 2011

knowing you are no longer here, really make me upset

it's about heart and feeling.

some said I'm sloppy, some said I'm sensitive.

well, it's me. yes it's me!

but, I rather being judged as a sloppy girl etc, than I lie to my heart

I really can't imagine how's my life in the next day.

it will be empty, it will be quiet, and it won't be as colorful as before.

people and friends can feel the different way,

honestly I just want them feel your existence by surprising you or other way.

I want you become more confident in society.

I can only pray, I do hope you have great experiences in life there.

I hope when you come back someday, you'll tell many extraordinary stories,

which means you did do everything best there.

day by day, closer to that day,

I want to dedicate my time for you.

I will do everything till the time that I can't see you

and I will wait to see your face again. till the time meets us.

this is the hardest part, to let you go for a distance,

to leave your society, to leave everything here.

cry is not a big deal in this case.

you don't have any power to cancel the departure

so, show me that you don't wanna go through your tears.

I don't laugh cos boy's tears.

because they rarely cry, their tears means something !

something inside their heart, which is floating and cannot be contained anymore.

I'd ever hoped that I can be the greatest girl for you, but I can't be.

I'm not that great and I'm just a simple girl, maybe impolite sometimes. :(

I just like an old women, give the message over and over again before you leave.

many letter I will give to you, through 2 myspro and 1 card, and I forget what else

maybe this blog?

well, just trying to blow up several thing inside my heart.

sorry if I'm too talk-active.

just worry too much.

PS. I love you.